As we are all experiencing, 2020 has brought things into our lives that we NEVER thought would be possible. Mostly over here in Crazytown we have adapted. We definitely have struggled, but we have adapted and we have survived. The one thing that we just could not get through here though has been school. For our very bright and very social Third grader, not having the stimulation of her friends and the push of her teachers in person has caused her so much stress and sadness and defiance and its just been an absolute downward spiral. For our sweet little new Kindergartener with Down syndrome and a learning delay its been a total disaster. Just a total and complete disaster. She had been on a roll and doing SO well in Pre-K, we were excited about the inclusion and the new challenges that Kindergarten was going to bring. But no one could have seen this coming. Its been totally awful. This all - for both girls - has absolutely NOTHING to do with their teachers. I am all teary thinking about how much the girls have come to love their teachers even though they've only seen them in person like 10 times. These teachers are working their tails off and I just cant even imagine how hard this is for them. This whole thing is not fair. And the worst.
After having a total breakdown last Thursday, posting a picture of Lucia on Facebook and getting SO much love and support from everyone, after crying in the shower like I haven't cried in lets just say like six years, and then curling up with the girls under the weighted blanket and falling asleep, after begging God to guide me, he did. The next couple days were filled with so many messages and phone calls from people raving about their homeschooling experiences, from friends/the girls former teachers and therapists all reaching out to see what they could do to help, we decided to throw caution to the wind and open up A Pretty Crazy School.
Entering that name on the state education website made me laugh so hard and brought me way too much joy - haha!!! I have NEVER NEVER EVER in a million years thought that I would be a homeschooling mom. My sister is awesome at it. I see how it works for so many people but I trust...but....us? I need a BREAK from the Craziness most days, not to 100% TOTALLY immerse myself in every single aspect of it. I'm not sure I trust myself to properly educate these beautiful little minds. I keep telling myself that it does not have to be forever, we can go back when things get back to normal. That whatever we do can't possibly be any worse than what we are doing (welll....make that NOT doing) now. But maybe, just maybe, it will be awesome.
I will tell you this much, in the last couple days since we made this decision, there has been a noticeable difference Vianna. Its literally like a weight has been lifted off her. She has been excited and happy and its a huge relief for me. I have been very worried about how this has been affecting her mental health. She is sad that she wont see her friends but she is fully aware that she wasn't really SEEING them anyway...and that was adding to the mess and sadness. Its like a tease. She's excited to meet new friends through homeschool coop groups. She's excited to really immerse herself in things that she is interested in. Her eyes are sparkly for the first time in a long time....and I not even exaggerating.
Lulu, she's heading back to our beloved preschool for a little review and boost up. How she has fallen is heart breaking. We're going to get her brain moving again and then see where we go from there. I know how she learns. Its really been hard watching this system fail her. Especially because after the Zoom school is done, she's mentally exhausted and crazy and doesn't want to have a thing to do with the flashcards and songs and things that DO work for her. I think this is going to be great for her too. She is a smart little girl. She is LOVED by so many wonderful people who want to watch her succeed. She will thrive and she will do great. Of this I am 100% sure.
Right now as I write this and our girls are on one of their last five zooms, Vi is singing under her breath and is HAPPY. Lucia is happy. That makes ME happy. We have had a GREAT morning. The first in months. Thank you Lord!!!!
I do know that this is going to bring a new set of challenges. I know that there will most likely be tears over this way of learning too....we ARE The Pretty Crazies after all. BUT I'm excited and optimistic for the first time in forever (sing it if you know it!) and honestly I'm excited to see what we will do with our Pretty Crazy things too. We LOVE doing videos and songs and blogs and podcasts and all those things that we do...or WERE doing before we lost our minds and our motivations. Its going to be great to get back in touch with our passions and the things that make us happy and fulfilled.
SO! Thats it. If you hadn't been following us before, I PROMISE that #aprettycrazyschool is going to bring a LOT of crazy to your lives and ours. Hopefully the GOOD kind!! We are excited and oh so ready for 2021. BRING IT ON!!!!